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Relationships

Posted in Black Caste with tags , , , on October 19, 2009 by crow1971

In my past there have been all kind of relationships, that were important to me. The first my parents, my brothers and sisters, of course. But later even a companion and my own children. I even had friends, people I felt a bond with and people who I trusted. When my companion and children were killed, I felt alone and without any ties with others. Perhaps the perfect moment to be recruited for the Black Caste.

When I had to redo my training in the hochburg mountains I was partnered with a man who became more friend, then I wanted or ever held possible. A brother, one that shared the stress of waiting, the pain of all the severe beatings, the thrill of passing an other task. We both knew that at one given moment one would have to kill the other, but somehow we managed to keep that as far from us both as possible. When the moment arrived I think we both fought with tears in our eyes.

Perhaps I may seem as the cold and merciless killer, that has lost any kind of feelings for an other. If that is so there is much truth in it, after giving my partner the final blow and claiming his life I never have felt so cold, so lifeless or all by myself.

The relationships I have now, aren’t based on this solemn trust, sharing of joy, pain or frustrations. They are based on respect and complete understanding that at any given moment it can turn and it will be his or hers against my own life.

This and only this, makes me wary to get to deep in relationships as they might be a danger to my own life in time. It doesn’t mean I don’t care, wouldn’t fight for those I care for now. But the depth of these relationships is as far as gold can reach it.

Gold and Steel … that is all there is.

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Slave values

Posted in Mastery with tags , , , on October 17, 2009 by crow1971

The value of a slave isn’t that hard to measure. She is allowed to be at your feet or she is to be sold or killed. There is not much in between. Perhaps a slaver might have shades of grey when it comes to slaves, but for me there isn’t. I don’t want to busy myself with fighting a girl’s slavery. She can accept her place and do what she is told and be kept, or she can fight her place and be sold or killed.

I am certain this might seem harsh, perhaps even cruel but she is merely a slave, nothing more and nothing less. She is to be replaced at the first thought I might have on it. However the fact a slave can be at my feet, means she is valued and considered worthy. Perhaps for some that might be a reason to think she is still nothing, but nothing is more wrong.

As an assassin I am very careful who I allow to be this close, only those I consider to be on my good side I allow. The girl I own is unique and considered precious, since she is allowed to sit and observe almost anything I encounter. The only place she will never see is the place I take when I am on my hunt for a Mark. Not that she might not be able to contribute in a way, but simply because I value my slave too much to endanger her during the most dangerous moment of my life and caste.

My girl Sephi was purchased as a lure girl, she had been trained well in the compound by the first girl. Her beauty, seductive and intelligence make me perhaps a very fortunate owner, since I hardly have to discipline her for doing things I wouldn’t approve off. She has been my girl for some time and every time she amazes me with her personality.

She is valued, untill she bores or displeases me. Although I doubt she will ever will get to that stage since she seem to understand that she can always seek my guidance for learning what I wish to see in her.

Perhaps Mastery is also about communication, being able to make them feel secure enough to speak without being to frightened, eventhough she has all the reasons to be scared. After all I deside if she lives or dies.

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Ranks

Posted in Black Caste with tags , , , on October 13, 2009 by crow1971

Never have I felt that I needed to have some sort of rank, to know who I was or what I was about. When I was approached to be Lieutenant I was honoured, perhaps in a way felt acknowledged for what I did in training those that were in the guild. I have taken it and carried it as it was, a mere sign that some of the tasks were coming my way. The rank didn’t make me different, they didn’t show me that I was better it only showed others what they could expect from me.

When I received the rank of captain, it was in many ways the same way. The rank on itself only a position, with more demands and responsibility. Nothing more and nothing less, as far I am concerned.

However with the rank I understood that some might take me as an example and became therefor more aware that my knowledge and act should be flawless.

I know that the next rank might be Master Assassin, a rank many killers wish to achieve or even claim. In my humble opinion often to early and unaware that this rank is for those that will be judged severely when they act badly or breach the codes.  Nothing after that rank will come and only those that are the best in the caste should hold that position.

For now I don’t feel I can hold it in the same glory as Serpent or Sol do. I even feel that when they still breath, although the breath of Sol might be no longer, there is no reason for me to even consider the claim of that rank.

I serve the Cast, the gold and Steel, in the best of my abilities and as long as I am allowed and until the position become vacant, I won’t make my claim. If and I hope the time will be far in the future that this position becomes vacant I can only say that the caste would be served best if the spot would be filled with that killer that is the best for it at that time.

So when you see me … call me captain … as the rank is well earned and carried with its burdens and obligations, but don’t see me as a Master Assassin, since that moment has not yet arrived.

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Revenge

Posted in Black Caste with tags , on October 8, 2009 by crow1971

No Killer will admit it as it is one of those emotions that might trouble ones view on facts, still I can feel it at times. The sweetness of just settling the score, making someone pay for doing you harm.

It is one of those emotions that I hardly feel, but ever since I heard the news about one of my mentors I feel it running trough my veins. The one that guided me to become what I am now seems to be closer to me than perhaps the knowledge that a killer shouldn’t be guided by something as this.

It is all about containing it, being aware of the monster that lives within yourself … not to distract me from what I am but using it to make amends. Can a killer even with this emotion be cunning, sharp, calculated and most deadly ? I think he can and perhaps in the very near future I can be sure.

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Honor

Posted in Black Caste with tags , , , on October 5, 2009 by crow1971

Some might think that I am just a killer, having no claim on a homestone and therefor live a life without honor. I doubt it is true, that honor is based on a vow one makes to a home or even a caste. Much depends on how a man is, perhaps was raised and lives.

Crow was born and raised in Ar, a rarius as he followed the caste of his father. His mother of the caste of builders had taken much effort in raising her childeren in educated and well mannered young men. When he companioned and had four of his own, he had reached the rank of a ranked officer in the city and was often send out on missions of a more political nature.

He was aware that presence, conduct and manners were of high importance to keep standing and have the respect that was needed for those missions. When he lost his companion and his childeren he perhaps lost his passion in life but never he lost that act of galantness and awareness.

So eventhough he is a killer, he is still a man with pride in who he is and believes in values certainly of the caste he serves. Not a man that will call out a name in vain, use it’s blade simply because he can and not a man that will show less respect for any other that he encounters.

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Raven becomes a killer

Posted in Black Caste with tags , , , , on October 4, 2009 by crow1971

Eventhough I am aware that what I do isn’t for glory or fame, I feel this sense of pride. Certainly when one of the candidates that come have this promise and finaly when they reach the end you are sure that what you saw was true.

A note … that this lad is finaly a killer !

 

[2009/10/04 4:51]  Crow drapes his cloak around him and puts up his helmet.
[2009/10/04 4:52]  Crow looks at the lads “Come all of you … follow me.”

[2009/10/04 4:52]  Hawk nodded standing up..

[2009/10/04 4:52]   The Lad pulls himself to hsi feet then simply waits for the killer to speak to him again. so that he might return to his hunt and then to report back to his teacher the dasy events

[2009/10/04 4:53]   The Lad nods at the killers words and follows him

[2009/10/04 4:53]  Crow looks at his girl  “Come mine, heel.”

[2009/10/04 4:55]  Serpent ‘Raven.. I hear the priest kings were most gracious with you…

[2009/10/04 4:55]  Raven nods respectfully to teh Master Assassin

[2009/10/04 4:55]  Crow inclines his head respectful to his MA “Tal Killer.” he said

[2009/10/04 4:55]  Serpent inclines his head around the cirlce slightly

[2009/10/04 4:55]  Hawk nodded towards he master assassin..”Tal Killer..”

[2009/10/04 4:55]  Raven: More gracious than you can imagine.

[2009/10/04 4:55]  Serpent ‘Do you think you have earned the right to the helm and cloak of the black caste?’

[2009/10/04 4:56]   The Lad walking up the stairs he finly reachs the top, where he see’s another Killer. hearing the owrds, he simply listens to them. and watches closly. etching the events into his mind

[2009/10/04 4:56]   The Lad: Tal  killer

 [2009/10/04 4:57]  Raven: I deserve nothing. I have worked hard for this, and though I failed to kill my training partner, I am hopeful that the entire body of work I have shown thus far will be deemed worthy.

[2009/10/04 4:58]  Raven: I want this. I hope you all feel I am worthy to wear the helm and closk.
[2009/10/04 4:59]  Raven: and If you do, it will not be wasted on me.

[2009/10/04 4:59]  Serpent ‘you did your best to kill him.. no hesitation.. no remorse… even though I know you were both.. friends’ he said the last word cuttingly… ‘I have spoken to the Masters and the assassins.. you will no longer stand as you are.. on your knees.. ‘

[2009/10/04 4:59]  Crow steps closer unsheaths his blade

[2009/10/04 4:59]  Raven sinks to one knee

[2009/10/04 4:59]  Melchior Wardell draws his sword ‘ The Crow ‘ from his hip.
[2009/10/04 5:00]  Crow narrows his eyes as if he was making this choice what aim would be best. He was swift and skilled wen it came to just cut of a head. He swings his blade well aimed and looked rather content ….

[2009/10/04 5:00]  Crow saw the sash fall of his arm.

[2009/10/04 5:01]  Melchior Wardell sheaths his sword ‘ The Crow ‘ to his hip.

[2009/10/04 5:01]  Severus Koskinen: ‘Rise Killer Raven… ‘ he holds out the black sash.. one that marked a killer of the tented compound

[2009/10/04 5:01]  Raven watches as the sash falls, the cut quick and razor sharp. He looks up at Crow then to Severus.

[2009/10/04 5:02]  Randall Reich looks to Severus incredulously…”Killer?”

[2009/10/04 5:02]  Crow turns to Serpent and nods feeling pride in this candidate and now killer. He turns back his green eyes light up briefly before they dim down again. “Killer Raven.” he echo’s.

[2009/10/04 5:02]  Serpent motions the crate by his side.. ‘Take what is rightfully yours’

[2009/10/04 5:03]   The Lad watches the sash fall from the ravens arm, the swift sure slash by the killer slicing into peices, those landing upon the ground then hearing the Killers words to the raven he nods his head in respect to Killer raven.

[2009/10/04 5:03]  Hawk nods respectully..”Congratulations, Killer..”

[2009/10/04 5:03]   The Lad then looking at raven he simplay says * Tal Killer

[2009/10/04 5:04]  Crow “Glory to the Black Caste.” he exclaims “Welcome Killer in our midst.”

[2009/10/04 5:04]  Serpent from this day you will be adressed as Killer… ‘

[2009/10/04 5:04]  Serpent ‘place the helm and cloak upon your person.. let all know what you are’

[2009/10/04 5:05]  Raven grins eviolly at all “I’ll tell you what I am…I’m a KILLER>”

 [2009/10/04 5:06]  Serpent inclines his head respectfully.. ‘Indeed Killer.. yes you are’

[2009/10/04 5:06]  Randall Reich lets out a big sigh of relief
[2009/10/04 5:06]  Raven: May I say something?

[2009/10/04 5:07]  Serpent ‘Nods.. it is custom’

[2009/10/04 5:07]  Crow couldn’t help himself to have this scense of pride. While he regarded the new killer, still perhaps a little unused to the cloak and helmet.

[2009/10/04 5:07]  Hawk watches the killer Don the garb nodding to himself clapping once as he listens to the killer..”

[2009/10/04 5:08]  Raven: I want to simply say that this is by far the best training program in all of Second Life.

[2009/10/04 5:09]  Raven: I have been a part of SL Gor for three years..and this has helped me push myself to be better in all areas…and I want to thank Severus, Crow and Snow for their excellent instruction and tutelage.

[2009/10/04 5:09]  Serpent ‘Then I am honoured to have had a hand in your training.. all we ask is you use what you have learned to portray the caste as it deserves.. ‘

[2009/10/04 5:10]  Raven: Indeed I will. and I thank you for providing the roadmap and the example which we all can emulate,.

[2009/10/04 5:10]  Crow bows to his words … eventhough hard by life they hit him “Do as we … and serve the caste in best. Killer. No glory is needed only a better caste.”

[2009/10/04 5:10]  Serpent ‘Now.. you will need this.. ‘ he removes a small book from inside his cloak.. and placed it on top of the crate

 [2009/10/04 5:10]  Fallon Larimore feels chilling bumps along her skin, grateful she was allowed to witness such and proud of the Master who had worked so hard and long. Recalling what Master Crow had once said about nothing worth anything came easy she knew this new Killer knew those words more than most.

 [2009/10/04 5:12]  Serpent ‘Would anyone else like to say a few words?’

[2009/10/04 5:12]  Raven: 6 months of hard work…
[2009/10/04 5:12]  Raven: Im actually speechless for once

[2009/10/04 5:12]   The Lad stunned by all he is seeing, and a surness of conviction he has never before felt, he knew now that this path was the correct one. still.. a man, granted the helm and cloak before his vary eyes, and now his book.

[2009/10/04 5:12]  Crow grins “Perhaps he should have a paga since that isn’t allowed in training.” giving the lad a stern look.

[2009/10/04 5:13]  Serpent ‘And a Slave… perhaps the blonde one.. ‘

[2009/10/04 5:13]  Raven grins

[2009/10/04 5:13]   The Lad gulps seeing the look and then grabbing his scross and scanning though them, not seeing those commands, though he quicky adds them with the quill he has in his belt

[2009/10/04 5:13]  Raven: Woe betide the next woman I get my hands on

[2009/10/04 5:14]  Crow laughs “Raven there is one girl in the compound … needs a bit of work … she is yours. I owned her once and she has promise.”

[2009/10/04 5:14]  Randall Reich: Whats her name?

[2009/10/04 5:15]  Fallon Larimore bit back a small whimper , forest green orns remain fixed on the stones

[2009/10/04 5:15]  Crow “She is nameless, and not one to take to lightly.”

[2009/10/04 5:15]  Serpent ‘Six months without a slave.. remember if you do take a slave… you are responsible for what she hears… do not sell an assassin slave except to others of the caste. simply kill swiftly..if you tire of them’

[2009/10/04 5:16]  Hawk smirked slightly hearing this…

[2009/10/04 5:17]  Crow “I am not often this generous.” he smirks

[2009/10/04 5:18]  Crow turns to Serpent “I do however … have a silver … since I predicted this outcome.”

[2009/10/04 5:18]  Serpent ‘go.. eat fur and be deadly… ‘

[2009/10/04 5:19]  Serpent ‘I do believe I made a bet in Ravens favour… ‘ he said to his captain..

[2009/10/04 5:19]  Serpent ‘so yes… I owe you a.. silver’ he says in a venomous whisper

[2009/10/04 5:19]  Randall Reich: what?

[2009/10/04 5:19]  Raven: what bet?

 [2009/10/04 5:19]  Serpent ‘who would be slain of course… we always make bets…

[2009/10/04 5:20]  Serpent and V did best you.. which means I owe Crow a silver… ‘

[2009/10/04 5:20]  Crow shakes his head “If I remember correctly you told me you believed he would make it to blue sash … while I wager for him to finish.”

[2009/10/04 5:20]  Raven: so Crow bet agaiinst me?

[2009/10/04 5:20]  Serpent nods

[2009/10/04 5:20]  Crow “Bastard.”

[2009/10/04 5:21]  Raven: OMG you two

[2009/10/04 5:21]  Serpent tossed a coin from his belt..  ‘My parents were actually Fc’d at my conception..’  he says blandly

[2009/10/04 5:21]  Raven: almost as bad as when Crow bet me I couldnt make Fallon Cry

[2009/10/04 5:21]  Raven: he lost a silver on that one

[2009/10/04 5:21]  Crow laughs darkly “You win some and you lose some.” he said catching the silver in mid air.

[2009/10/04 5:22]  Serpent ‘now perhaps we should head for the Taverm… Killers. and candidate..

[2009/10/04 5:22]  Fallon Larimore lifts her head up hearing the new KIller, her face remained expressionless

[2009/10/04 5:22]  Crow nods and takes of his helmet. “That would be a good idea.”

[2009/10/04 5:23]  Raven: im gonna sleep with this helmet on

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Possessions

Posted in Mastery with tags , , on October 4, 2009 by crow1971

After a hard life, where I had everything and lost everything within the blink of an eye, I promised myself never to get in that position again. No obligations to others, just me and the caste I serve. I have worked hard to maintain myself, trained with the best and killed even my best friend to keep that promise.

Now after some years I have found myself breaking a promise when I look at the place next to my boot. Two slave girls equal and yet so different, each unique and marvelous. Both owned by me and with that there is this obligation of looking out for them. Eventhough mere beasts I am still aware that they are far more close then my tarn ever will be. They are still women with their gentleness, their care and perhaps if I dare to say love.

Perhaps this awareness makes me a less Gorean man, perhaps makes me even weak eventhough many will see me as the heartless and mercyless killer. Both views are true and yet as if they were black and white.

When I see them struggle in their slavery … they reflect me in my own struggle of being a Master.

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Starting a black book

Posted in Uncategorized with tags , on October 4, 2009 by crow1971

After giving his own girl the assignement to keep a journal he muses that it might be good to keep his own. He was getting older and on some days he felt that life passed him by without taking the notion as he had done so many years before.

This book will contains his musings, his assignements, his poems and his challanges. Each will have a different meaning, but will give some secret insight in what kind of man he is.

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